Sunday, February 21, 2010

I'm Back :)

Ok...well it's definitely a new year now.. but I want to say that I am no longer that hostile. lol. Chels is still a major part of my life and I love her dearly. Everyone goes through rough patches right? Like right now. I'm supposed to somehow finish all my homework-understand it and maintain a 3.0 for this school year...EEP! I know God wants me to teach but this is getting a little hard. Then again so is life. :D
I'm facing it head on. Can't wait to get my own life though. One were I don't have to worry about knowing stuff I just do. I don't think that's possible but it would be nice.
Anyways I mainly just wanted to write another entry because my other one is so OLD. And to show myself that I have changed I guess. I'm not carrying around any more regrets about the past, I'm no longer searching for that "special" someone to sweep me off my feet. I'm simply myself. I'm finding out what God wants for me and concentrating on why I am in Oklahoma right now. Seeing as I lost sight of the goal for awhile...lol. I know it sounds insane but it's like you get to college and all of a sudden you start taking for granted the things you had. You start feeling like on some cosmic level this school owes you an education when they really don't. You owe them one. So- in light of just figuring this out, I'm going to work my butt off. Literally and figuratively. So that hopefully by the end of this year I will have lost some weight and gained some knowledge of what I want out of this life. lol.
Hope I write again soon- I really do miss it.
~Mandi Jo.

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