Martina McBride song

Wrong Again
From the day we met
You made me forget
All my fears
Knew just what to say
And you kissed away
All my tearsI knew this time
I had finally found
Someone to build my life around
Who'd be a lover and a friend
After all my heart had put me through
I knew that it was safe with you
And what we had would never end
Wrong again
Everybody swore
They'd seen this before
We'd be fine
And you'd come to see that you still loved me
In good time
And they said there's nothing you can do
It's something that he's going through
It happens to a lot of men
And I told myself that they were right
That you'd wake up and see the light
And I just had to wait 'til then
Wrong again
And it seemed to me the pain would last
My chance for happiness had passed
And nothing waited 'round the bend
I was sure I'd never find someone
To heal the damage you had done
And my poor heart would never mend
Wrong again
Wrong again

i dont know what to do

I mean I know he sees me, I am a very visable person, but what the heck? he cant wait like 5 min to talk to me or give me a hug.?And you know when someone says "hey stranger." your supposed to talk to them and try to ask them how they're doing...OMG he didnt even ask how I was...
Ok now I feel worse. How can the next guy I like end up thinking I am invisible and not worth caring about..CRAP.
He's such a hypocrite... "I will love you if you let me." PAH HA. Stupid facebook...never reliable. Why am I doing this to myself. I know we wont ever be anything, but that just seems to make me want to cry. WHY ME? is this punishment for breaking someone elses heart??
At least I know there is one thing I can count on, God's love. I think I would be a absolute reck with out him with me, helping me let go.
Man this totally wamps.
Its like I gave myself all these false hopes and clung on to anything and everything I could just to convince myself he was just trying not to lose his job, or ruin his rep, but now I just think he doesnt like me at all- just because I dont have the finer things in life. Guess he never stoped to think I have gone to hell and back, or the fact that I've survived it all and come through a better christian and person for it- but does he care to ask? No. He doesnt because all he cares about is playing video games and spending all his money on music and food- wow, that's so great and admirable- hey mr. christ like person- I know God would never smug me, so stop acting like I dont exsist!
GAHH WHAT IS HIS PROBLEM?
It's not like I'm hideous. Granted I know I could lose a few pounds and I am, it just takes time dang it. Shesh excuse me if I'm not miss Anna who is ike a size 2. Gah. All girls named Anna just rub me the wrong way now- Thanks man thanks. And uh if you want a girlfriend so bad stop looking so damn hard, I AM RIGHT HERE HELLO! Just because I'm younger doesnt mean I'm naive- I'm just as mature as any of the girls ive met that you've liked. I mean Anna- total ditz, sure she's beautiful and a christian but...what am I saying I dont even know her- she's probably awesome. I HATE THIS.
And I cant even talk to chels about this because she's always gone and so am I.
whatever-giving it all to God and hopeing that the Canada trip goes better than today. 8 hours in a van with him....I pod her I come.
~Manda

Next To You

Two o'clock and I wish that I was sleepin
Your in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is I gotta get next to you (gotta get next to you)
Sittin here turnin minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
Cause you don't know that I gotta get next to you
[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I just gotta get next to you
[ah, gotta get next to you]
Asked around and I heard that you were talkin
Told my girl that you thought that I was outta your league
What a fool, I gotta get next to you [whoa, gotta get next to you]
Yeah its five in the mourning and I can't go to sleep
Cause I wish, yeah, I wish you knew what you mean to me
[Baby] Lets get together and end this misery [oh]
[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I just gotta get next to you
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
To wanna get next to you
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
To wanna get next to you, Yeah
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
What I gotta say, what I gotta do
If I wanna get next to you
[whatcha gonna say, whatcha gonna do
how you get the one you want]
To wanna get next to you, yeah
To wanna get next to you
[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little to long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy but I think you feel it too
Maybe I [baby call me crazy]
But I know you feel it too
Maybe I, maybe I just gotta get next to you
[ah, yeah]
I gotta get next to you